Does this mean that I actually will want to have ? Serious answers only 10 points.?

when I was younger my dad used to mess with me sometimes, so now I am a 23 year old virgin and I always get weary any time a guy acts like they are just about physical things. Like if I ever managed to find a guy who just acted normal from the beginning, I feel like I would not have any trouble with later on, and I do masturbate sometimes. But I am also worried that I might not end up being able to have because I might be afraid. So my question is, since I do masturbate sometimes, does this mean that I DO want to have and would be okay with it when and if I find a partner? I would just like to know now so I don't have any problems with this later on.