How do you cope with the beginning stages of outpatient tramadol treatment?

My life has been nothing but CRAP and it IS my fault. I've been addicted to tramadol (Ultram) for over 10 years. I am, since last week taking Suboxone for treatment AND am going to counseling next week. I couldn't get an appointment any sooner. My whole family is pretty much sickened, my live-in-boyfriend is telling me things like, "Your a loser! I don't know why I'm still with you!", "Your mom is dying because of YOU!" (My mom has terminal cancer), he also tells me, "I love you, I've invested 6 years in this relationship, you think I am going to break up with you that easily, yet.....says stuff like, "Your no good to me anymore, your worthless, your a lying, piece of ****....blah, blah....blah....He also refuses to read the "family brochure" that the drug company provided about the treatment program I am going on. He is so angry with me, yet won't leave. He is making me feel even worse. The coping is getting overwhelming...Also, my sister is mad at me too, because my parents are having to pay for my treatment. It is VERY expensive and we don't have the money to pay for it. My life seems to suck so very bad at this very moment. BTW, I am already 35 years old. I've tried quitting for so long. I've gone cold turkey with horrible withdrawls for years, then just get back on him. He told me that I am the most selfish, -like person he has ever met, yet....sometimes is nice to me too. One minute nice, the next, he is yelling all this stuff to me...I mean YELLING...EVERYDAY.....Once every few hours, then gets nice again.....